Two years ago I wrote a blog post about the fact that the Lord was drawing me into a new season, a new path, a time of letting go and moving aside. It was a good season, a healthy season, a refining season. Yet, I find that we continually move into those seasons all through our lives. As we walk with our sweet Savior, He gently shifts our perspective and priorities in order to more clearly lean into all that He has made us to do.
Recently, I’ve been very quiet through my ministry here at Simple Deep Life. For lack of a better term, I’ve felt “tongue-tied” in what to share, in how to proceed forward, in what the Lord was asking me to do. I prayerfully constructed a plan for this year back in January and surrounded myself with like-minded women seeking to reach others for the Kingdom. Yet, I find myself in what feels like a new season and I’m back on my knees seeking God’s perspective and wisdom. If there’s one essential lesson I’ve learned over the years of ministry life, it’s that when I’m unsure of what to do, I wait patiently for God’s guidance. I keep doing faithfully what He’s asked me to do in the meantime and I don’t try to construct a plan without His clear direction.
Recently, I took my girls on a field trip to a butterfly sanctuary. We spent the day learning the science behind the amazing, colorful creatures that grace our gardens and meadows in the summertime and even had the opportunity to walk among free-flying Painted Lady and Monarch butterflies in a room that felt akin to the Peruvian rain forest we once visited. The most amazing part of our visit was when my youngest daughter pulled me over to a window that was set into a wall where I could see the beautiful turquoise chrysalis cases of the Monarch butterflies. We could see them in all stages of transformation, even some that were dried up and unused. It was amazing to think how God designed the butterfly to transform from a lowly caterpillar. (Free science fact: Did you know that the change is so intense that they are actually dissolving their own muscle structure during metamorphosis?)
As I’ve been seeking God’s direction and clarification over the past few months, He brought to mind these tiny creatures and the process they go through to become something completely different. They’re still the same in some ways, but they’ve been transformed to a very different type of life! A butterfly is able to things a caterpillar can only dream of doing.
Our family has been walking through an incredible season of transformation and what I like to call, wilderness living, for several years. I’m not sure it’s as astounding as a butterfly’s metamorphosis, but God’s been doing some amazing things in and through us. After 4 years of waiting, learning, starts and stops, transitions, settling, struggles, and victories, the Lord seems to be stirring some new visions and dreams of a future in full-time ministry again. I believe the past few months have been very quiet for me because God is asking us to enter the chrysalis with Him as He begins a transformation only possible through His incredible grace and provision.
I don’t know what exactly that means for my ministry in Simple Deep Life, but as I was praying and crying out to the Lord this week, asking Him to give me clarity and the next right steps, I believe He gently said to my anxious heart, “It’s not about the ending, it’s about a transformation, a new way, a remaking. Will you trust me to remain unseen and hidden while I do this work in you?”
I have much more praying and seeking in the coming weeks. I had planned to begin summer coaching groups and to write more guides for the Church calendar year. Now, I’m going to sit quietly and see what the Lord is leading me to do. We’re about to enter the longest season of the liturgical year, called Ordinary Time. It’s a time of silence, a time where we just faithfully do the day-to-day mundane tasks that fill the majority of our lives. It’s a time for us to reflect on all the fuller portion of the year has taught us about the example of Christ in order to live that out now in the daily grind of broken-world relationships and ministry. I am also a home-school mom and this season has brought to mind many areas of education and discipleship that we need to place a new emphasis on within the structure of how we run our day. If there’s one thing that becomes mundane in life, it’s homeschooling and raising children! Yet, that is the deep, hidden work of life, to walk alongside others as they grow and learn! I believe that the Lord is drawing me into the place of quiet to lead the way in that learning and growth for my children. I believe He wants to prepare all of us for the greater work that He is leading us towards in the future. That requires that we take the time and make the effort to create the white space that we need to let His Spirit work within us.
This month has brought a lot of learning for me. I’m taking today to reflect and recognize that God is at work in me, through me, and with me. He is leading my family into something new, something unknown, something that will require preparation. We are being asked to evaluate many things, many priorities, many areas that feel comfortable, in order to clear some space to begin this process of change.
How about you? What is going on in your life this month that has brought you to your knees? Maybe you’ve just received some difficult news about family, friendship, or a ministry position. Perhaps you’re feeling the stirrings of something new too, and you’re just not sure what God is up to. Like me, you might be staring a new season in the face, unsure of how God is going to provide or bring you to the other side of the wilderness. Let me offer you some hope, the same hope that I’m clinging to in this season of wondering and uncertainty.
Thus says the LORD,
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
“I am the LORD your God,
who teaches you to profit,
who leads you in the way you should go.” Isaiah 48:17
The word there for “profit” means to excel, to be useful, or to aid. I know that for you, my sister in ministry, God wants to teach you to excel, to be useful, to aid those around you in desperate need of hope and certainty. I believe that’s what we’re seeking to do and I believe that God is leading us into the places where we will learn how to best do that for His glory. Let’s continue to walk together?
As we move into this summer season, I wanted to give you a little guide to help with the intentional mindset needed to walk this ministry life. Please let me bless you with this free Summer Survival download and shoot me a message on Instagram to let me know how to pray for YOU as I step back and enter this season of quiet.